AutumnRainesWrites

Write what you want to read. Does that even make sense to you? Today is day one of my next 120-day journey. I just concluded my first 30 days, and on day 31 I had a complete meltdown. I mean, I lost my shit. I cried, slammed my bracelets, cried in the car, and in the shower. I even cried while getting my Starbucks. I cried so much and so hard, and I asked questions. I asked lots and lots of questions. Is this all worth it? Why am I even doing this? Who do I think I am to think I can accomplish this? Then, of course, I am yapping at God . I get mad at God, and then I cry, and I ask for forgiveness. I tell God he's amazing and that I am sorry. Sorry for being so ungrateful and shitty towards him because I know it's not God's fault. It is my own. My decisions, my actions created the moments I am encountering. Then something happened. I said I will do this again and even further. I will do this for 120 days. I sat down I researched my work, and what I was going to share and w...

Writing has always been such a dream for myself. I have dabbled in writing, as a matter of fact I have a few books on amazon kdp. The dream though was to be a successful writer. A fictional story creator where readers from all around the world loved my stories. I wrote one book about twenty years ago and never tried again. Maybe I felt rejection maybe I felt like a failure to be honest writing is consuming. Writing can come in the middle of the night while your in the shower, in an important work meeting, in my case when your takig an order from a customer. I have always been the mom and family supporter. I supoorteed my family as best as I could when my children were little. BUT and this is BIG and I am being honest my children grew up and I am still supporting them. When do you say its time for me? When do you give yourself the permissio to do what you love? In my case write my stories. In late July I started a 30 day manifesting project with my spiritual online friends. Like I expr...